As I sat here and thought about Zane, and how he'd been 11 this year if he lived--I thought to myself---this is the first time since it happened that I didn't post on Grief & Loss. I thought "what difference does it make?" and then I thought--"it makes a big damn difference". 11 years ago I posted HERE for the first time and I made friends---so many friends through INCIID--friends I still have TO THIS DAY.
I cannot fathom that if my baby had not died at 24 weeks due to a cord accident that I would have an 11 year old son (nearly) How different would my life be? It would be very different.
It's "funny" in that losing Zane, I gained so many friends, so much support. I have many INCIID memories and am thankful that INCIID exists. I do not know HOW in the HELL I would've ever made it through those first few awful months, and then the raw years that followed.
Yes, it gets "easier" but I have to say that not a day goes by that I don't have at least a fleeting thought of Zane. He is a part of me--and he is a part of INCIID. He EXISTS here. Real life, not so much...
My husband remembers, my daughter knows. This year my mom actually remembered THE day--progress I guess.
For old friends.....I have not forgotten. For anyone new here, I am so so so sorry---it hurts like hell, and it doesn't get better necessarily but it does get "easier" as time passes.
And for Liz---HI. Hope you are ok.
Thanks again INCIID...
I cannot fathom that if my baby had not died at 24 weeks due to a cord accident that I would have an 11 year old son (nearly) How different would my life be? It would be very different.
It's "funny" in that losing Zane, I gained so many friends, so much support. I have many INCIID memories and am thankful that INCIID exists. I do not know HOW in the HELL I would've ever made it through those first few awful months, and then the raw years that followed.
Yes, it gets "easier" but I have to say that not a day goes by that I don't have at least a fleeting thought of Zane. He is a part of me--and he is a part of INCIID. He EXISTS here. Real life, not so much...
My husband remembers, my daughter knows. This year my mom actually remembered THE day--progress I guess.
For old friends.....I have not forgotten. For anyone new here, I am so so so sorry---it hurts like hell, and it doesn't get better necessarily but it does get "easier" as time passes.
And for Liz---HI. Hope you are ok.
Thanks again INCIID...
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