Could use some cheering up...

[Levana]

I've been feeling kind of down and negative about this cycle the last couple of days. Before the transfer and the first few days after the transfer I was feeling so positive so now I'm bummed that the negativity has taken over.
:-( I'm only six days past 3dt so it is impossible to know one way or the other whether or not it worked...but I'm just not feeling it. And I keep second guessing the decision to put back only one...now I wish we had gone for two.

Oy. Don't know how I am going to make it through the next week and a day. This period sucks.

Levana

[aandp]

((((Hugs!!))))

You know that you won't know for sure until you're done with the wait...and unfortunately, you just have to wait it out. I hate waiting, too....so go try to keep yourself busy in the meantime. Redo that photo album or scrapbooking or whatever it is you should do while you relax.

[Levana]

Thanks for the hugs Patti. I really appreciate them. All my "symptoms" like cramping and sore boobs have left so I really feel nothing. That freaks me out a bit even though I know those symptoms were not because of pregnancy!

Anyway, I've been thinking of you and hope you are doing well. Have you given any thought on how you want to proceed now?

(((HUGS))) back to you.

Levana

[Annette]

Don't give up Levana!!! There's no way to know until your blood test. So try to think good thoughts until then. Believe me I know, the negativity can take over so easily but like Patti said try to distract yourself during this time and do things that you find relaxing and peaceful. One of the girls I know who did IVF, she kept the picture of her embryos by her bedside as a tool for positive thinking and it really helped her get through the wait.

And about second-guessing putting back 2...I know it's easy to think about the what-ifs but you made the best decision that was right for you and you can feel confident in that you did what was best for you. You had very good reasons for not putting back 2, and I think if I had known the history of what you had gone through before when you had asked for advice I would have said 1 and not 2.

Hang in there, HUGS!!!

[Levana]

Thanks for the thoughts, Annette. I'm trying to get through as best as I can but trying to distract myself doesn't work. I have a one track mind right now. :-) Well, I'm halfway through the wait so far...

I do know that putting back one excellent quality embie was the right and responsible decision but still...if it doesn't work, I'm gonna wish that had transferred two. But I do take some comfort in knowing that we were able to freeze three embryos so if this doesn't take, we can try an FET before having to do a fresh cycle all over again.

Where are you right now in the cycle?

Levana

[Annette]

I know it can be hard to distract yourself....sometimes getting out of the house helps me. I mean I know it will be on your mind but if if I am doing something at least I can get reduce some anxiety. And you're halfway through the wait already!!! Oh and that's great that you have frozen embryos!!

I am on Lupron right now, I start Gonal-F on Monday so I am excited to get started on that part of the process. I go in for my baseline E2 blood test tomorrow morning.

[Levana]

Things really started to move quickly once I started stimming. Good luck on Monday! I hope you respond really well and that the cycle goes smoothly and easily. Keep us updated! I love seeing other posts -- it makes me lonely that this board is not very active.

Levana

[Annette]

Thanks! I will keep you posted. What day is your blood test?

[Levana]

Wednesday -- a week from today.

[Annette]

Ok I'm making a note of it. And I know there is a time difference so I'll be looking out for your results. You're almost there!

[Levana]

Yes, we are seven hours ahead of EST. So I'll probably hear from the nurse early afternoon but it will be morning by you.

[Annette]

Wow so that's 10 hours ahead of my time which is PST. Well I can't wait to hear how things go

[aandp]

I hate false symptoms...

But one more week in the wait - you are halfway there! yay!

Quick update on me - Well, if my period would ever start, we could officially move on. But it isn't. I'm concerned that I have a cyst, again, and that is messing things up. I've taken 2 tests late and all were negative. But my dh and I talked in length and we both feel that if we don't do IVF again, we'll regret it...especially (and no offense or negativeness if this does apply to someone) since the stats of everything working changes at 35...which is less than a year now. I think I'm going to try to take a break from the boards - and from the baby announcements on FB for a while - and get through the holidays. We're hoping to start up again in January. In the meantime, I'll be stalking out you two to make sure things are going well.

[Levana]

Patti, I'm glad that at least you and your dh are on the same page about how to proceed. It makes it so much easier when both partners agree. Sounds like you have a good plan and I agree with you, if you can make the time and have the money to try in January, it is a good idea rather than waiting. Age definitely plays a big factor.

Well, I'll be thinking of you even if you aren't posting! Sending (((HUGS))) and af vibes; I hope you don't have a cyst.

All the best,
Levana

[Annette]

I'll be thinking about you Patti!! Whenever you are ready to post again we will be here