Patti and Lisa, how are you both doing?

[Levana]

Been thinking of you both -- hope you are surviving the 2ww relatively sanely.

Levana

[aandp]

I'm here..

Going slightly mad, I think.

My uterus and my left ovary are attached and have been pulling bad recently. I'm trying to think that it's just because my uterus is so full...but so hopeful at the same time.

Ugh - I hate waiting! I took my last hcg shot last night, so now we get to wait to get that out of my system.

Thanks for asking, though!

[aandp]

WAIT - NOT clear out the hcg...

but the hcg from that shot!!!! I want more!!!! LOL.

[lisa222]

Thank you for your post Levana over on the General Infertility questions board. I really appreciate it. I am having such a difficult time thinking that I would be pregnant right now if I hadn't forgotten to use the stupid cream on Sunday.. Everywhere I read it says any sudden drop in progesterone will cause a miscarriage. It's such a terrible feeling to think I caused it. I never would have believed that rubbing in that natural progesterone cream was giving me as much progesterone as the info I am reading says it does. I thought I was just adding a tad to begin with but now I am reading that topical is 10 times stronger than others. I feel that the only way to feel better about this is to do it again and not use the cream. If it fails...boy I will be even worse off. If I hadn't have seen the dark brown and purple tissue followed by the white tissue I may hav ejust thought AF started early. But it seems that something was actually expelled and then the bleeding began and it tears me apart.
I just finally admitted it to DH today and it made me feel so much better but still feel so darn guilty.. I cry at the drop of a hat and it just plain sucks!

[aandp]

Lisa -

((hugs)) I am so, so sorry. Please be gentle with yourself and give yourself time. And let us know how you are doing.

Thinking of you!
Patti

[lisa222]

Update (bfp ment)

Hi ladies, remember me? I have been on a new IVF cycle since April 26th. I just got a bfp yesterday at 10dp3dt of 70. I am such a nervous wreck. After so many failures I can't do anything but worry. I have another beta tomorrow. I hope you are all doing well. I have not found anyone cycling this time and it's kind of lonely.

[Levana]

Lisa, great to hear an update from you and such a positive one as well! Hope your beta has gone up nicely and that you then have a nice boring and uneventful nine months. So excited for you!

levana

[Annette]

Congratulations!!! So happy to hear about your positive! Please keep us posted on how things progress, I think there are a couple of other ladies on the beta board as well.

[Annette]

Hey Levana, how are things going? Been thinking about you!

[Annette]

Hey Patti, how have you been? Are you still thinking of doing a cycle this summer?

[lisa222]

Thank you ladies! I am glad that my beta went up to 154 but it did not ease my nervousness. I will go check out the beta boards.. Thank you again! All the best to you ladies!!!

[aandp]

Congrats, Lisa!!!!

[lisa222]

Thank you!