I need your prayers please!

[SoniaO]

Update us when you can!

Anxiously awaiting to hear how things went for you!!!

Sonia

[jennielou79]

transfer

Out of our 8 embryos, only 2 made it to blastocyst stage, one fully and one partly. They said they would watch the other 6 for one more day to see if they developed further and if they did they would be frozen. They implanted the 2 rated "fair." The transfer itself was amazing. The embryo is too small to be seen by the human eye, but when transferred it's surrounded by little air bubbles. One doc did the actual transfer, and another doc had the ultrasound going, so we actually got to see the embryos as they were released! It was really cool! I'm bored with bed rest already, but hopefully this will be worth it. Pregnancy test the 17th!!!

[SoniaO]

Hope all is going well for you!! Be sure to keep us updated! Will you be doing any home PG tests? If so, be aware that there are differences in the sensitivities of each brand. Here is a link that tells the levels it will pick up.

http://www.craigmedical.com/pregnancy_chart.htm

I'll be thinking of you!!!

Sonia

[Annette]

Hi Jennielou! I just had my transfer yesterday. But I didn't get to see the transfer because I was in a lot of pain (my cervix was very hard to reach). I got pictures though to take home so that was really special to me. Our embryo stats are very similar, we had 8 embryos that were "finalists" and only one of ours made it through for the transfer, but it is a good one they say. My test is on the 21st. Wishing you lots of good luck for your test on Thursday!!!

[augie]

Best wishes, Jennielou and Annette! Hope the 2ww flies right by - update when you can!

[jennielou79]

Annette, I am praying your results are better than mine. Unfortunately it didn't work for me. And they threw away our remaining 6 embryos. I don't believe they're going to give me another shot at this. If I hadn't been in the IVF process in May I would've gotten a full hysterectomy then. They said then I only had one chance. I'm truly heartbroken. I don't know what I could have done differently, but somehow this is my fault. Good luck to you. I will keep you in my prayers. No one deserves to feel this way.
Jennie

[Carlaliz]

Jennie,
I wish that there was something that I could say that would help, but I know that there isn't. Please don't blame yourself. I'm praying for you and hoping that you will have the support and love that you need to get through this difficult time. We're all here for you too!!!

[Annette]

Jennie I am so very sorry. Please don't blame yourself, it is not your fault. I really hope that somehow maybe they would let you try again, or at least let you freeze your eggs. I am so scared for Monday to come when I do my beta. You are in my thoughts and prayers.

[jennielou79]

I didn't really start getting my hopes up until I went in for my bloodtest. Then my sis and I went to Target and I was gushing at all the baby clothes. I can't imagine how I would be feeling if I had gotten my hopes up a lot sooner. Don't worry about me. I wish the best news for you on Monday. Especially this time of the year, which is hard on so many already. I'll keep you in my thoughts.

[Annette]

Hey Jennie,

My blood test on 11/21 was negative too. Have you had a chance to talk to your doctor to see if they will give you another chance?

[sienna]

Jennie,
thats horrible! I just read your post. Why did they throw your embryos away? That is so upsetting to me. I cant even imagine how you have been feeling. I have been writing with Annette and came across your post. I also had a negative test after our first IVF cycle in Oct. Its so hard. If you want to talk, and are looking for support please feel free to write me back. Keeping you in my thoughts and prayers.

Sienna

[Annette]

Hi Jennie,

Just wanted to let you know that I'm thinking about you and hope you are doing ok. Big hugs...

[jennielou79]

a month later...

So sorry to hear your results were the same as mine. I'm being told by many different people that there's a better chance of IVF working the 2nd time than the 1st, and even better yet the 3rd time. I did get the go-ahead to start over again in April. But I'm really thinking I need some time. Because my insurance changed January 1st, I only have one more shot at this. I don't know if I can go through this again. I will eventually, but I need more time to prepare myself emotionally. They said there was a chance it wouldn't work, and I understood that from the beginning, but I was in no way prepared for how I would really feel. My relationship with my boyfriend is also about to end, because he wasn't as involved as I was emotionally and he doesn't understand why I'm still so sad. I hope we can work through this and someday try again. My heart is still very much broken and I feel like even more of a failure than I did before. But time heals all wounds, they say. I will check back here periodically (my computer isn't working so I have to go to the library). I want to wish all of you the best of luck in the future, and thank you for all the warm wishes. It's nice to know I'm not going through any of this alone.

Jennie

[Annette]

Hi Jennie

I know how you feel about needing some time. When we first started the ivf cycle, I had no idea the toll it takes on you. Wow. But the fact that success rates seem to increase after second and third tries gives me some optimism.

I'm sorry to hear that you and your boyfriend are having problems right now. Dealing with infertility issues can really wreak havoc on a relationship. My husband and I went through our "dark days" about a year and a half ago. He couldn't understand why I would get so sad or wouldn't want to be around pregnant women or babies. We made it through to better days eventually but boy is it hard when you're going through the thick of it. Some couples find relationship counseling helpful, if you have insurance coverage for that type of thing, it's a great tool for opening the lines of communication/understanding sometimes.

I am looking into other things that might boost our chances of success the next time we are able to try. Acupuncture, yoga, organic produce, and also I am having my husband take a supplement called ConceptionXR that is supposed to be really helpful for the "swimmers".

Wishing you good luck on your path to parenthood and we will always be here to support you when you need it

[sienna]

Jennie,
I hope u begin to feel better day by day. I know its a rough ride. I have been there. Your chances do go up from what I have heard, and seen. We just did our first FET cycle and I'm thrilled to say I am now five and half weeks pregnant!! I also felt like a failure. I dont think the men feel like we do because, although they are also disappointed ultimately it isnt their bodies. It is a lot of pressure for us. Dont give up hope. A month ago I was completely heartbroken too. I am happy to hear you will be able to try again. Wait until you feel ready. Take as much time as you need. I was told I could immediately go into a FET, but I opted to take a month off to let my body and mind rest. I'm happy I did. Dont let anyone tell you how you should feel. Your feelings are your feelings and no one can tell you they are wrong. Take care and God Bless